I'm realizing that I am having trouble accepting other peoples values and lifestyle choices. I have trouble that people smoke cigarettes because to me it is so utterly unecessary and unhealthy and since you don't feel any type of buzz from the first time smoking, usually it makes people sick to their stomach, i really dont understand why or how anyone gets into it. and the health risks are so well documented and known so I just have trouble that people spend a lot of money on them and really are essentially slowly killing themselves by making that choice. Especially difficult for me is when its a friend of mine who engages in that behavior.
I also have an issue in general and it is something I am always working on in myself to DO Something instead of just complaining about problems.
yes some things in my life which affect me negatively right now I unfortunately dont have the power to control because they are emotional but I am doing what I can with meditation and therapy.
I sometimes feel an overwhelming sense of dread when I realize and hear/see so many people living their lives with such apathy. They just accept that life will be a dead end job from 9-5, 5 days a week with a handful of vacation days throughout the year. I understand that due to so many sociological factors, this is a reality for a lot of the population and the world for that matter, and that it is great that many people are perfectly content with a steady paycheck and ask no more of life than being able to have a home a family and material comforts
for some reason, I want more. I want to dive into life like a swimming pool. I am not content to swim laps back and forth back and forth, I want to climb up on the diving board and do canonballs off of it, I want to swim to the bottom until my ears hurt and spin in circles and do underwater somersaults. Thats what I want out of this life.
sometimes its hard for me to understand that so many people accept and or are happy with a "normal" life. I realize a lot of it has to do with class and opportunities. One needs to be shown the other options to know that there is even something else available, and I understand that sadly a life outside the "normal" realm is unattainable the way this society is set up. But I firmly belive that you can get the life you want, as much as the American Dream is BS and it takes tons more in life than pulling up ones bootstraps and hard work everyday to get what you want, but as much as I'll talk your ear off about the sociological reasons people are trapped in these apathetic situations, I also refuse to belive that any other option is Impossible if you do really want it. I dont know, its hard because I feel like as a social worker I am caught smack dab between the two worlds. On the one hand I will be an educated professional with the ability to get a good job (well.........not so well paying) but able to live comfortably and have opportunities available to me, on the other hand my clients are often from a much more limited background with fewer resources and so many negative factors piled on top of them that it does appear like they are trapped and there is no option for any other lifestyle.
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