Musings 2

When a person is comfortable in their own skin, they exude a certain energy which relaxes others as well. This tends to help develop a feeling of intimacy and trust, which arrives along with feeling comfortable.

When you talk about doing something, but you don't actually do it, one must ask themself, why don't I want to do it? Inevitably there is a reason that you are not actually doing that activity already. But many people expend their energy fabricating or explaining why for external reasons, they have "not had time" to do it. There will always be potential excuses, and other ways to spend one's time. Therefore, until one reaches the internal block which is inhibiting the manifestation of the desired activity, it will never commence or realize its potential.

Introduce yourself in terms of which groups you are a part of which are oppressed, and which groups you are a part of which are privileged. Makes for a dynamic understanding of a persons experience.

Musings

I've undergone a transformation of myself since the start of this year just 6 short weeks ago. Its remarkable how different an outlook I have on life now. I was in a stable, professional, career oriented job. I was in a long term committed relationship where I felt I was happily in love and had found "the one". Today, I stand before you as a unemployed, single woman. Would it surprise you to hear that I am profoundly happier than a few months ago? I feel a sense of freedom that I had forgotten existed. I feel whole again, after going so long not realizing part of me was missing. I had fallen into a depression, as a result of feeling stagnated and now I realize, incomplete. The fire that had powered me for so long had become almost dormant, smoldering feebly. Now I feel its waves of heat roaring through me. I am living at the very edge of my existence, gazing outwards at so many possibilities, because life is happening right this very moment.   There are so many passions that I have so many profound interests and devotion to so many worthy causes in this world that it has taken me years to even narrow them all down to a few. It has emerged unquestionably however, that my truest determination lies with the incredibly necessary and inspirational work of empowering the most undervalued resource this planet has; women. I have recently been feeling a call to my country of birth, Colombia. It would be a fitting place to return to, a look to my past to help make sense of the future. But it is the yearning of exploration itself that is calling me the strongest, and then a return to writing and a glance to the universe to help me find a direction.