Musings

I've undergone a transformation of myself since the start of this year just 6 short weeks ago. Its remarkable how different an outlook I have on life now. I was in a stable, professional, career oriented job. I was in a long term committed relationship where I felt I was happily in love and had found "the one". Today, I stand before you as a unemployed, single woman. Would it surprise you to hear that I am profoundly happier than a few months ago? I feel a sense of freedom that I had forgotten existed. I feel whole again, after going so long not realizing part of me was missing. I had fallen into a depression, as a result of feeling stagnated and now I realize, incomplete. The fire that had powered me for so long had become almost dormant, smoldering feebly. Now I feel its waves of heat roaring through me. I am living at the very edge of my existence, gazing outwards at so many possibilities, because life is happening right this very moment.   There are so many passions that I have so many profound interests and devotion to so many worthy causes in this world that it has taken me years to even narrow them all down to a few. It has emerged unquestionably however, that my truest determination lies with the incredibly necessary and inspirational work of empowering the most undervalued resource this planet has; women. I have recently been feeling a call to my country of birth, Colombia. It would be a fitting place to return to, a look to my past to help make sense of the future. But it is the yearning of exploration itself that is calling me the strongest, and then a return to writing and a glance to the universe to help me find a direction.